Friday the 13 : i.thou [ final cut ] online release

Aloha! It’s Friday the 13th! Just 13 weeks remain in 2017. I’m releasing my vaguely illegal, dangerous, feminist film online today.

Welcome to the house of illusion. Our images of each other can make prisons. Open a side door into the collective unconscious. Nothing is as it seems, is it. . .

i.thou - still

i.thou, final cut (still) – 2008-2013

I built i.thou [ final cut ] over a five year period, wrapping it up in December of 2013. David Finkelstein reviewed this work at FilmThreat before that site disappeared. He describes the work by writing ““i.thou” doesn’t exactly tell a story, but it distills the atmosphere of dozens of stories drawn from films, generally stories where a woman is trapped in the (male dominated) institution of a mental hospital, a lab, or a prison, where she struggles equally against her captors and her own, internalized sense of being “sick” or “wrong.” ”

As you watch the coda consider the stories nested into the entire work – each female character re-presented here [ Beatrix/The Bride, Nikita, Dorothy (audio only), Ripley, Kieslowski’s Julie from Blue & more ] were created by male directors who proceeded to “put them through it”, for our entertainment. Ripley destroys the nursery in which she was made [ Alien: Resurrection ] – –

I have been told that the work is “too much” – too long / the wrong length to screen in festivals. The repurposed content too big of a risk for copyright liability [ even as Richard Prince & Girl Talk take that strategy all the way to the bank ]. Too experimental [ we figured out datamoshing in the ‘oughts – this is new media, right? new forms! ]

The work presents a ‘dead girl’ in a shot extended from her original 45 seconds of screen time to several minutes. Remember, the dead girl is not a character, but the memory of her become the character. Media makes memory for us these days. This work fits somewhere in both the preceding statements.

Wear headphones for best viewing experience!

viewing notes :
– the work has three movements and a coda; visual and loops are used/considered symphonically as classical music would, in motifs
– there are ‘pauses’ in the film where the screen goes completely black, between movements
– the opening of the third movement includes complete silence
– all melting, artefacting, ‘failed video’ looks are intentional

I would love to hear your thoughts about i.thou [ final cut ]. Rose McGowan and many other women were sacrificed on the altar of this form, filmed entertainment. That is a part of this, too.

Thanks for being here. All of this madness is a part of all of us. With this art we visit it for a few minutes, and then put it down.

Jessica

i.thou : director’s statement [excerpt]

i.thou : caged bird

i.thou : caged bird

This film evolved from the process of codec alteration, commonly called ‘data moshing’. I saw Takeshi Murata’s work at the Hirschhorn in 2007. Already working in experimental video, I decided to figure out how to do that. A few youTube tutorials later, I started playing with data alterations on a variety of found, captured, and recorded videos. As I figured out the results I preferred – richer colors, slower transformations – I became really interested in moments where two people in a conversation ‘merge’, as in the closing image of the woman holding the man at gunpoint.
i.thou : blue faces

i.thou : blue faces

This kind of merging or collapsing of faces operates in the space of social dynamics of self and other. Martin Buber’s psychological philosophy describes how different people can see the world, based on their own personal development. In the ‘i-it’ dynamic, the self relates to others as objects or dolls, fixed images of some sort. In the ‘i-thou’ dynamic the self relates to other people as complex being with lives of their own. The term ‘sonder’ is also related to this.

I began thinking about the natural objectification that is at work inside the language of film. Constructing this film over a 5-year period was a long period of musing on the projected image, the archetypes that good films evoke through great image construction. Also, how the human mind constructs images or ideas, how our imaginations participate with the physical world to create reality.

i.thou : lets play telephone

i.thou : let’s play telephone

I’m looking forward to announcing exhibition / screening of the work.

Total running time : 38:29 // dolby surround // available in a variety of digital formats

i.thou [ final cut ] [ 2007 – 2013 ]

they found the dvd in the sand under her body. i don’t know where she is.

agency // archetypes // authority & doubt // caged bird // certainty // cult of the dead girl // data-altered video // deconstruction // doctrine // durga // epistemology // film // hallucination // pathoshadenfreude // social identity // the [ tomb ] empty [ womb ] // voyeur culture // witness //

experimental digital video.
visuals : avidemux, ffmpegx, quicktime 7 pro, final cut pro 6-X. audio : apple logic 9.

all production : jessica fenlon

view the first movement here. screenings / exhibitions tba

ode to completion : i.thou

i.thou now stands as a 40 minute experimental film.

The stills collected here are moments from the making process.

The film is as much about the illusion of filmmaking as it is the illusion of perception, the malleability of our senses . . . A meditation on social vs. personal [ lived ] identity. Lived self and the dance of projection.

It’s also a 40-minute hallucinated, irrational, unbelieved, outrageous homage to women who have disappeared – – an imagined resurrection of the body of ‘the dead girl’ so many stories are built on in our media.

Silence, voice, image, experience, ownership . . .

. . . I’m putting the final touches on the audio mix today and tomorrow.

[ thoughts from the gallery of stills on flickr ]

in process : stills from i.thou : chapter ~ 19

i.thou : chapter ~ 19 (flight)

i.thou : chapter ~ 19 (flight)

i.thou : chapter ~ 19 (19)

i.thou : chapter ~ 19 (19)

i.thou : chapter ~ 19 (nikita in kitchen)

i.thou : chapter ~ 19 (nikita in kitchen)

i.thou : chapter ~ 19 (baby crocodile)

i.thou : chapter ~ 19 (baby crocodile)

i.thou : chapter ~ 19 (19)

i.thou : chapter ~ 19 (19)

these stills are taken from a 4 minute sketch i worked up the last few days. this is for the next chapter of the film in progress, i.thou.

the chapter or excerpt is titled “19”. the moshing technique assists the viewer take a meditative journey on identity, memory, witnessing, transpersonal consciousness, the tellable story, and the problem of unbelievable experience.

the still image of the girl named “19” is taken from the television show CSI. the source video shots used (pre-processing and ‘mosh’) look like the two stills that follow:

i.thou : chapter ~ 19 (source still)

i.thou : chapter ~ 19 (source still)

i.thou : chapter ~ 19 (source still)

i.thou : chapter ~ 19 (source still)